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He showed me videos of Anal sex . Told me that it is little painful to do it but he will bear that pain for me . His cum will nourish my butts and put they will be perfectly toned and shaped up for short dresses . He also told me that all models get this done . It's the secret that women or men don't generally share . I cried out in pain as he entered me . He had a lube , gel and a sex toy to make it easier on me. I got him agreed that I won't suck after anal penetration. I pushed him for proper intercourse but he denied . Told me it's for marriage. All that he wants me to look even more beautiful now. All Saturday's and Sundays I would be with him citing work pressure at home. 2 years passed like this , I sensed something is wrong . His sister was getting married , I was so happy for that . He didn't invite me to his home town . Made excuses , remained silent on our marriage . The frequency of our dates in his room were once a fortnight now . Howsoever I may resolve to not do it I would end up with sucking him dry . His kiss , his embrace and what I called ' My Joystick ' was my lifeline . I told amateur him loud and clear that I will not marry anyone except you , neither will allow you to marry anyone else. 3 years passed by , he bought a car , a flat but kept postponing for marriage saying it will spoil the good time . I wanted to do a outdoor proper intercourse but he denied it Every time. We stopped talking to each other over differences on marriage . One day he offered to drop me to home . Just before I was getting out , he held my hand and Drew me close . I just melted . He licked me hard and I gave him a passionate blowjob . It was such an intense moment that we didn't care an iota on ‘ what if ' ! At times I didn't believe it's me . I used to be a shy , diffident kind of girl who is doing all hardcore things . I allowed it all in the name of my love for him. My family had many marriage proposal in between . My relatives kept on insisting on it , some really good options came.For me it was never an option The same routine continued for another 6 months . I went to another city on tour for 2 weeks . When I came back I asked him to meet . His response was very cold . He texted me in night that he got engaged to some other girl and i shall forget him. I didn't believe him , went to his office next day , he told me the same thing and said that its all over between us . He continued his verbal assault on me . Thoroughly insulting and demeaning me . Called me a bitch who has no self - respect and despite so much of rebuttal refuses to lick it's owner. He said that he can still offer me his Cum once a month after his marriage if am so much keen to have it . Marriage , in any case , is not possible. I broke down . I got numb . It all looked dizzying horrid . I can't believe him as I moved out of his sight. It must be his prank , I thought . I can't be mad after such a disrespectful guy. It wasn't him , I cried out loud. I cried cried and cried for the entire night . I knew what am going to do . Will go his home in morning , will suck him and then things will be normal. I reached there at 7 am . He came out and said what do you want ? I held him , trying to kiss him , thrusting my breast on his chest . He shoved me away as I touched his crotch . Pulled me , showed the pics of his engagement and closed the door voyeur pushing me out. I have very faint memory what happened afterwards , how I came back home. On that day I ate rat poison , vomited it , cried non stop . Had it not been for my parents and my big brother , I wouldn't be here writing this . For gullible girls like me , I have few thoughts to share , Never give yourself up fully to your man . Say no , you will be valued . Watch the sexual behavior of you guy , if he is too much into it , asking for unnatural things , then he may not be the right one. Be strict , put conditions. Love is ok , but for getting him to do what you want , you need cum to be tactful. If he insults you , put a full stop there . Don't pursue that relationship. Get yourself educated on sex . No one shall be able to fool you with irrational stories. Finally , no relationship is absolute . It's all conditional. If we public want it to be with our conditions we need to keep a tab on our emotional outlets. I got married 2 years after him. Am so emotionally torn that when my husband asks me for fellatio or Anal sex , I decline. Joy of yesteryear is a pain for today . I hope pouring my heart out here will lighten my burden . Edit - I did Meet his wife and told her what he did ( not in this much detail ) . I guess , he had already anticipated it and had taken her into conference . She told me that she is aware of the physical part but he isn't a Cheat . Whatever happened happen with my consent and also instigation. Even she has a past and she has started a new life with him . She suggested me to get away from this and start anew. Edit - I have been graphic and deive because I have learned that by detailing it once somewhere and sharing the minute things will help me in catharsis .or else it keeps on coming back to me. Edit - I want to create a distance from my past and by not telling it anywhere I will keep it burning in my heart. Even the porn stories are based on realities somewhere . What we don't see is where it eventually leads to !! Tyler and I got home at the same time and rushed to our room. We tossed our clothes off and started furiously making out. “Babe”, her boyfriend said from next to us, while fucking Harshita, “I’m right here.” “There’s a ‘no shoes’ rule on this boat,” Ethan continued, “and since it’s just you and me, there’s a ‘no clothes’ rule for women as well.” He pulled me into his arms and whispered into my ear, “Thank you, dear Deepti. "If either one of you start having sex with others, use the condoms anyway, OK. Too many kids get sexually transmitted diseases, OK?" He promised. Looking to my left was just what I was looking for. She’s so cute!” Stacey leaned back, her eyes bulging with horror as she saw their twisted 'toy.' It was one of these nights, a couple weeks into this new routine, that I went into the kitchen to get something to drink when I saw my sister passed out on the public cum couch. WARNING! YET! Pat led Sarah through into the club, it was dark, the red lighting and green lenses gave a surreal mauve tinge to everything but Sarah realised she could see the catwalk lading to the left from the Changing room and the steps down to the body of the hall or room straight in front, it was a big area, three times that of the shop at least voyeur and she saw shadowy figures in the background. She shifted and her amateur head was resting on my shoulder while she jerked my cock. So I arrived outside his house at 7.30 and for some reason something told me not to go in. I pondered for a moment and then turned round and went home. ‘You look nervous’ she said and placing her outdoor hand against my chest she pushed me back sending me sprawling back on the bed, my champagne spilling down my front. Her eyes shone with such glassy lust. Dakota having gobbled down three of her fried hard egg sandwiches, got up and rinsed her plate off and put it in the dishwasher. Eric thrust himself to meet her downward moves and their crotches collided with breath-taking force, Becky grunting with each impact. “Panties, too, Mom.” Her head was bobbing, my cock was in and out of her mouth. Three of them. It slid in, with a comfortable pressure, slowly, steadily, right up to the web. Cindy was incredibly horny. “Um, no. When I was shooting shit into my veins with razor blades this man turned my life around – only to have my left tit try and kill me. Fuck tits.